Back to digital for the weekend
Well, tomorrow afternoon, I’m going to Guangzhou for the weekend…and I’m back Sunday evening.
I’m only taking the D50 and not the FM, incase the bastards operating the x-ray do anything to the film.
But somehow I feel so weighed down. I haven’t even packed yet, fuck’s sake. But this afternoon I made sure all 4 batteries were charged, the charger was there, the D50 with the 30 1.4, 50 1.8 and 75-200 3.8 were there. All AF lenses. All heavy, except for the 50 1.8.
And somehow I feel so unsafe. So…dependent. Not because I’m afraid the lenses are going to break if I drop them; not at all.
It’s more that I’m going to be relying on batteries for the camera. And while I have no problem doing that for a day (as I did during focus week, as I did during both sports days), I do have a slight insecurity heading off to China relying on 4 batteries and a charger.
It’s been ages since I’ve relied on batteries for more than a day. Fuck I rarely even rely on AF anymore, I’ve gotten so used to manual focus with the FM.
And manual focus isn’t a problem for me. In fact, it’s a plus. It’s silent, you don’t rely on any AF points to get the photo on focus (assuming you can focus without the split-image/microprism) and it doesn’t take any electricity. Since I got the FM in summer, I’ve come to love it; it’s my favourite camera now. At first I thought manual focus was going to be impossible to do all the time. I was afraid I was going to miss shots because of it.
But actually, it’s only improved my shooting. Because the FM has almost nothing. A shutter speed dial, timer lever, aperture stop-down lever, film (re)winder, multi-exposure button and film counter. That’s it. Compared to most digital cameras with more menus than is necessary and buttons that share functions.
And this “lack” of functionality lets me concentrate more on shooting and not so much “discovering” new features - from the moment I picked up the FM I’d already discovered all it’s features. Nothing new; all the controls were so familiar already I could start using it right away.
And on the topic of “concentrating on shooting”, that also means not worrying about batteries. The FM needs no batteries (you can put batteries in it for the centre-weighted meter, but that’s all it’s used for (I took mine out ages ago)); the shutter/mirror mechanism all rely on springs.
I guess I’m just lazy, not wanting to carry all this stuff with me. But that’s the reason I’m getting a rangefinder this year (looking for a Kiev 4a to be precise) - light, sturdy, quiet and completely mechanical. Honestly, I hate worrying about batteries. Even more than that, I hate carrying them around. I hate the time it takes to change a battery, especially in cold weather with cold fingers. Even the bulk of one single D50 battery pisses me off.
Also, most AF lenses are a lot heavier than their MF equivalents - the only exception in my setup is the 50 1.4 Series E, which is a lot heavier than the 50 1.8 AF-D. But it’s worth it, for that extra bit of speed and the build quality (50 1.8 is plastic. 50 1.4 is metal)
I remember on the 1st sports day this year (not the finals), I picked up the 50 1.8 that morning after having used the 50 1.4 for a few months.
I just thought “holy shit, this feels cheap”. Of course it felt cheap compared to a full-metal+glass lens. What did I expect?
One comfort this trip, however, will be that the 75-200 is a push-pull lens; the design that I’m so familiar with these days (and prefer so much over the twist-zoom, especialy on long, heavy lenses). Also, that lens uses a metal barrel - that’s a big comfort in itself.
Oh well. I’ll survive. I’ll try and get great photos. I’ll just keep telling myself that it’s the photographer, and not the equipment.

